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horangee
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Mirrors from the past…
I vaguely remember a time that I was fascinated with taking pictures of myself on mirrored surfaces …
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Heaven, purgatory, or hell…
Sitting in my car eating some gelato after eating alone at Panera and shopping alone at Ross listening to Blink182 (the sad song; or the other sad song depending on which one you think is the saddest). Are the tears the pain and realization of being alone. Or are they tears of joy for the gelato, which I have to say is really, really good.
I really want to drive to the beach and just keep on driving into the ocean; just drive forever. But I have laundry to put away and a bed that needs to be made…so maybe next time.
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Definitely judging
But 70 minutes for a dryer at the laundromat seems a bit excessive
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Not ready to make nice
I suppose I was a fool to believe that I would be worthy of forgiveness. Repercussions of my actions; make my bed and all that. Still, it hurts and proves to the voices that they were right; that I was truly a fool to think and believe.
But enough of cycling between crying and distracting. Hunger is the one sensation I can’t fight. If only I could only be a depressed starving person instead of filling the hole with food. I tell myself that it’s better than alcohol or drugs, but I wonder if it is really.
If I could just cross that line of lying to myself that I’m happy and believe it. Why can’t I just jump into the gaping hole and let the lie just wash over and consume me?
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Twitching eye
I’m tired of the alien larva that is gestating in my left eyeball twitching all the time. Just pop out and devour me already.
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