Monthly Archives: February 2008

I wish that I didn’t loose your phone number cause I can use you tonight…

I am in all kinds of messed up.  Physically, Mentally, Spiritually.

Trying to force myself to the hospital and to the psychiatrist.

Probably should stop by a church too.

Attempting to clean the room, because it is always a good place to start when you are trying to pick up the pieces.

If it is a good bad, maybe I’ll clean out the computer, update this blog a bit, and go to the gym.

But to be an Eyeore about it, I probably won’t get pass cleaning my room.

Wow! You are the Erotic Powerhouse of the Romantic Food World. Your passionate personality is always one to surprise your partner with amazing nights (and afternoons and mornings). Ever since Aphrodite, the Greek goddess of love and basis for the word “aphrodisiac,” emerged from an oyster shell in the sea, the oyster has been linked with passion. But remember, especially during Valentine’s season, not to neglect life’s practical demands, like paying your bills and going to work.

**sigh**  I remember last year when I finally found this theme and was able to put it up on the site.  It looked so good in my mind and I was so going to be a good little blogger and record my entire life daily.  Even at the beginning of the year, I made a resolution to do a better job blogging.

But all I’ve done is neglect you.  To be fair, I’ve neglected a lot of things, esp. in the last two weeks.  Which is to say that I’ve gone through the motions without anyone really noticing.  I can still wear a mask and costume and fool the outside world when I want to.  But inside, I have been really dying.  Even with a bump from you, and I still more depressed than ever, when I should be flying in the clouds.  It’s not your fault, if anything, you have been the only oasis in my life so far, cause when I’m with you, I do forget about the stuff that is going on outside my life.

I really need to order flowers for this week.

What I need to do is get some breakfast and then work on pulling myself out of this funk.  I know that I don’t have to do it alone, but with everyone having their own problems to deal with that is greater than mine, do I really have a choice?

And poor neglected blog, I will have to do something with you.  A change is def. in order.

Even when everything is not in sync, it can still be good if you know what to do.

I should have called you yesterday, but I’m glad you called me today.  And I’m glad you came over.

Maybe next time we will watch an entire movie from start to end, not from beginning to end of opening credits.

Can’t wait to see you again

…not really, just poking my head out. I really should have called you last night or the night before. My loss, but I’ve been in a funk and it probably wouldn’t have been fun. Or would it… I shouldn’t have told you about Sunday. But the die has been cast, as they say. We’ll see what happens. For the record, you do have pretty eyes and I really should be attracted to you, but I’m not I still think about you every day and wonder what you are doing with your life. I think about you too and wonder if you will say yes this time when he proposes to you I need to buy you a plane ticket so I can se you before you leave the continent. I just want to wish you a happy birthday. I wish you could forgive me, but I understand. Happy Birthday to you too. I saw someone walking down the street who looked like you the other day. I should call you so we can spend the day at a museum. Or hot tubbing. Either way, it would be fun.