Monthly Archives: November 2003

Worried about my job

Sitting here in the darkening warehouse, trying to catch up on the paperwork that I have and my mind just wandered off and I’m wondering if I should be worried about my job.
I don’t know, just thinking about certain events, things that people have said or done, things that are going on now. And I just wonder if I should be worried about it. I really would be in trouble if I was let go from this job. I think I am doing a good job right now. Tech. I’m a little behind on a project or two, but that is on my timetable and not the stores. I haven’t yelled at or pissed anyone off; I don’t think so. And Brian has given me praise the last couple of times that he has come out. **deep breathe** Maybe I’m just letting my mind get a little overactive. Damn, this is going to bother me all night long, I just know it.

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Somebody loves my underwear….

Decided to look at my stats for my webpage. Damn, somebody was trying to get this picture of me in my Tigger boxers, like 32 times. Well if it means that much to you then here is the picture.

Crappy Monday

Well, it hasn’t been that crappy of a Monday, but still. It hasn’t gone the way that I wanted too. It saw me staying at work late cause my boss was waiting for a ride to the 49ers game. Then traffic was a bitch all the way home. In order to salvage the day, I decided to skip going to the gym (yet again) and headed to Krispy Kreme and pick up a 1/2 dozen. Also got some chocolate milk to make sure that I would get out of the mood that I was in. Yes, Krispy Kreme for dinner; mom would be proud of me. Finished off three so far (Glazed, Key Lime, and Devil Food); there is a Sour cream one sitting in front of me with the chocolate milk, just waiting for me to down them with glee. However two new variables seem to be joining forces in order to stop me from my feast. I am feeling really fat right now; it feels like my love handles have grown and are drooping down my body. I know that I am just imagining it, however I am refusing to actually grab the handles or to look down at them. The 2nd, and more deadly of the enemies happen to be my teeth. It is not a paralyzing pain, just a flash to let me know what I am doing my injesting all of this sugar.

It is an epic struggle. Wonder who will win.

Post 6000, honey mustard, and weird dreams

According to the log, this is post 6000; which got me all excited for some reason until I realized that the count is all screwed up. When I was importing all of my Livejournal
and other entries, I did it twice. So the actual count is in the 3000’s, which is still somewhat of a accomplishment.

Anyway, what happens when you have 2 beers, 10 piece chicken McNuggets, and a bag of French Vanilla Milano’s:
weird ass dreams. Both in the span of 5 hours. On a side note, French Vanilla Milano’s are excellent. I think French Vanilla can make anything taste better. Just a theory that I have. The second is that my faith in McDonald’s has been restored because the Pacifica McD’s has Honey Mustard sauce. I love the honey mustard sauce that they have, but they only have it at select McD’s. I can’t begin to count the number of times I have gotten that confused look from the cashier when I’ve asked for the sauce. Or better yet, when they give me a packet of hot mustard and a packet of honey. So while, I’m not going to start eating exclusively at McD’s or anything, when I do get a craving I do know which McD’s I will be going to. Ok onward to the dreams

The first one was me and another guy at Suzanne’s house and we were both waiting for Suzanne to come back home. So this guy is out in Suzanne’s living room talking to her dad, and I am cleaning her room. And I can hear this guy and Suzanne’s dad talking about stuff, like car stuff and sports, etc. I’m cleaning the room and thinking that I should go out and talk to her dad about Apple stuff. Next thing I know, Suzanne is in the room, helping me clean the room. Then there is a flashback of Suzanne and I driving on a clear moonlit night with the top down. We are being silly and laughing and enjoying ourselves and I get pulled over by a cop. I get a ticket from the cop, but I am so giddy and happy, the office thinks that I am drunk or something and I have to convince him otherwise. Then I go back to cleaning Suzanne’s room with Suzanne. And it’s a larger, different room than Suzanne’s room and we are cleaning it quietly. But Suzanne is happy, she giving me smiles and there is that good quietness going on, that invisible connection is going on and it’s great. There is this great energy in the air. Then the other guy comes in with Suzanne’s dad and Suzanne’s dad tells us that there are two taxi’s on the way for us. So Suzanne is talking to this guy, and I think that they are talking about something regarding either the Renaissance Faire or the Victorian Dance. And they are really getting into it, I think that I was still cleaning. Wasn’t threatened or anything, just listening and cleaning. So the taxi pulls up and the taxi driver screams that he is here, and the other guy leaves. So then another taxi comes up and I get ready to leave. I congratulate Suzanne’s sister Kimberlee and her
fiancé Kevin on their engagement, and then I give Suzanne this long kiss. Like no warning, no talking or anything, I just lay a good one on her. And I know that we aren’t together in the dream, and that she is either interested in the other guy or going out with him. But I do it anyway. And she is surprised, but she doesn’t back away. And then I say goodbye to Suzanne mom and start to leave. But I turn around and start to talk to Suzanne’s mom and ask her if I can call her because I am worried about taking care of my parents and none of my friends know what I am going through and she is the only person that I know who has gone through the same situation. Then my cell phone went off and I woke up.

The second dream was shorter and even weirder. I’m in a hotel room and two people come in; one person I didn’t know, I think her name was Gwen. The second person was Carol, one of my old bosses at Solano College bookstore. So Gwen and Carol come in to talk to me. I guess I am a cashier and Carol tells me that my register was $120 short. And then Gwen asks me if I have a gambling problem. I say no and then Gwen tells me that I loss $1200 at the tables last night and that the register was short $1200. And I’m like I don’t gamble and I was in my room all night. But Gwen says that they have me on tape gambling. And I just start to lose it; I start saying that maybe I have schizophrenia or multiple personality disorder. Maybe that I’m sleepwalking and need to be
hypnotized or chained to my bed. I start crying on Carol apologizing, asking her to help me, and promising to repay them, and then I wake up.

How bout them apples for a “6000” post.

Friday Five for November 14th, 2003

1. Using one adjective, describe your current living space. average

2. Using two adjectives, describe your current employer. unorganized; tribal

3. Using three adjectives, describe your favorite hobby/pastime. mindless, fun, time-consuming

4. Using four adjectives, describe your typical day. late, semi-productive, hilarious, stressful

5. Using five adjectives, describe your ideal life. loving, eventful, meaningful,
spiritual, filthy rich

FUCK!!!

Damnit!!! Tomorrow, I have to co-host a focus group. Basically, I get to help my boss listen to the bookstore employees bitch/moan about stuff; mainly the music situation. Gawd. I wonder if I should call in sick? **sigh** No, I need to get it out of the way, and it will look good on my review. O.K. I def. need to goto sleep, like 20 minutes ago.

Listening to The Doors and Mr. Morrison. Wish that I had a little incense and some candles to help with the mood. Some Jack would be
appropriate too.

Regular bedtime should not be 2-3am in the morning…

Especially when you have to be at work at 9am. Yawn. I really need to work on going to bed early. I should not stay up late at night working on my web site, reading work manuals or anything for that matter, playing Diablo II (and cursing at Diablo for killing me over and over), perusing journals and blogs, looking at porn, cleaning my room, or anything else for that matter.

**yawn**

I really need to start going to sleep earlier. At least reign it back to 1am, and work my way towards going to sleep at midnight.

**sigh** just another sign of my youth slipping away…

Getting forgetful in my old age

One of the worse work habits that I have is that I lose things easily, especially paperwork. The most expensive thing that I have lost was a $129 CD Player (which I blame on the Wellbutrin ) that I was taking. However, usually it is paperwork. One time in the span of less than 5 mins, I lost the registration for the company van. Yes, I am that good.

Well, on Friday, I lost the paperwork to a clothes order that we got in. And I’ve done the usual search, looking in the usual spaces where I leave everything, but no luck. So since I forgot to bring my workout clothes to goto the gym like I was suppose to, I think that I will punish myself by staying after work and looking for the stupid paperwork. I think that the darkness and the cooling temperature will hopefully be an
incentive for me to find it.