Monthly Archives: July 2003

Full Moon….

And the full moon is out, which would explain the fireworks going on outside and my horniness that I have felt all weekend.
[Listening to: Don’t Talk – Jon B. – Pleasures U Like (04:44)]

Weekend Update…

First, the bad news; I not going to see my family at the end of the month. Call me stupid, but I never realized how much in bills I was paying. I don’t know, I was figuring out how much I would have left after I paid my bills and it was far less than what I thought it would be. It’s practically the same amount every month, however this month it just seem alot more. I have the money to get tickets, however it would really leave me with no money for the rest of the month. I think that it would be financially safer to wait a month before going. **sigh** Mom is not going to be happy.

O.K. Onward to other things. Saturday, after wrestling with my hair for 30min, I was able to get out of the house and drive up to Napa to pick up Amber. I haven’t been to Napa in quite awhile and forgot that downtown Napa is like S.F. a.k.a. one way streets. It didn’t help that I had the wrong address for Amber. Picked up Amber and headed to Vacaville post-haste.

Dropped Amber off at Gabi’s house and then jetted across town to pick up April at her house. We ended up going to Pietro’s Italian Restaurant for lunch and Cold Stone Creamery for some ice cream. Pietro’s was O.K., the ravioli’s were O.K., the bread was O.K., the salad was O.K. Not bad, not good. Just O.K. Cold Stone was
excellent though; tried Banana Ice Cream with brownies and almonds mixed in. Good stuff. April and I caught up on stuff in our lives…in some ways, April is changing; it’s not in a bad way, just changing in a way that is different from the norm. However, the same April is still there, the one that I can talk to about a slew or people, places, topics and bodily functions. And hey, went we are talking, we look good, and we know it.

Also got a present from April; a copy of the Lisa Lisa/Cult Jam CD that I got for her. OMG, talk about going back in time and playing the hits. Head To Toe, Lost In Emotion, and of course All Cried Out. I started to listen to that and had to stop cause I was tearing up. Still that would def. be a good duet to do with April at karaoke sometime. Also took a look at her camera that she is selling. Very tempted to get it, but to quote April “Resist the Urge”. Yeah, I am going to have to resist the urge on a number of things that I want, like a new cell phone, a new computer, new clothes, new CD’s.

[Listening to: All Cried Out – Lisa Lisa & Cult Jam – Super Hits [UK] (04:46)]

So after I got done with April, I went over to Gabi’s to see if they had got back from the lake. It was around 5pm and I didn’t want to drive all the way to Lake Berryessa and look for them, only to have to drive right back Gabi’s to BBQ. So I went down to Fairfield and hung out at Barnes & Nobles for awhile, before heading back to Gabi’s to wait. Barry showed up around 7pm. We had a beer, and then headed out to get party alcohol and baby wipes. Went to Costco, but they were closed, so ended up at Albertsons. Called Amanda and was going to goto her house to cheer her up (she felt sick), however she
shooed us away and said that she would walk over to the BBQ later. So we got to Gabi’s right when the everybody was
coming back from the lake. Perfect timing. Since we didn’t have enough food, the girls all went out to get more food and baby wipes while the guys stayed and took care of the kids. Alyssa is getting so pretty with her big eyes; Antonio is still the cute stuff also. Both are a hand full, but I had fun playing with them and pushing them around on the tricycle while the dad’s got the grill working. Amanda showed up later with Pina Colada mix and we hung out drinking and smoking cigars.

The girls came back and we started fixing the food and BBQing. It was a really good BBQ; the food was great and the mood was mellow. One of the big things is that they are not going to have a 10 year reunion. (Everybody
except for Barry graduated a year after me). Not that they were excited about going, but it’s kinda sad if you don’t even have one planned. Anyway, After several more drinks and falling out of the hammock a third time, I made my way indoors to goto sleep, but Amber didn’t think that much and offered to drive my car back to Napa, where we could sleep on beds and not have children wake us up in the morning.

Amber tried to get me hooked on Elvis Costello and Ben Folds. Ben Folds I like (though not
ecstatically) however Elvis Costello does nothing for me. Get to Amber’s and crash out in her spare room. Woke up in the morning felling pretty good. Played with the cats and took some pictures of her amazingly cool house. Contrary to comments that I have heard from others her house isn’t that haunted looking; just as haunted as any other house. Besides she has 2 cats to protect her from any spirits in the house. Drove back home and forgot to go and visit the crop circles (damn). Decided to go over the Golden Gate instead of the Bay Bridge. Beautiful view of the city semi
shrouded in fog; wish that I could have taken a picture, but that driving thing got in the way. When I got to the toll booth, I found out that the golden gate toll had gone from $3 to $5. Yep, all I had was $3; oops. I will be getting something in the mail. Anyway, got home around noon, walked along the beach and watch the surfers for awhile. Came back home and took a nap. Woke up later and paid some bills. Cooked dinner and watch some TV with Barbara, and then spend the evening messing around with Songwriter and php stuff that I don’t understand. And now, I am going to goto sleep. Have a feeling that it’s going to be a long week. Think that work continue to drag me down until I take a vacation. Need to check and see just how much vacation time I have maybe I have enough to take off for a couple days this month and still take a week of next month to see my parents.

Drunk

But surrounded by friends. Friends that love and care for me.

Yet I still feel alone.

I love my friends…

enough to leave my comfortable 76degree weather by the beach and drive up to 101degrees sweltering heat in order to visit them. Gah….Who am I kidding, I would do it over and over and over.

Anyway, I should have been getting ready to leave the house now, but I’m not. The cats are inside
exploring once again. Not sure if they are still getting used to me, or if my room just stinks. Hmmm.

O.K. I need to wash up and find some clothes to put on. Think that I will have to bust out the shorts again. I know, two times in two months; what is going on here?

[Listening to: Dreams – The Cranberries – Everybody Else Is Doing It, So Why Can’t We? (04:32)]

Troubles – Alicia Keys – Songs in A Minor

(yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah)
Dear lord, can you take it away?
(ooooh)
This pain in my heart just follows me by day
(yeah yeah yeah yeah)
And at night it stalks me like the shadows in my room
(mmhmm mmhmm)
Oh my goodness

Verse 1:
Feels like the world is closing on me
Feels like my dreams will never come to me
I keep on slippin deeper into myself
And I&m scared, so scared

Chorus:
If you&re troubled

You just gotta let it go
If you&re worried baby
You just gotta let it go
All your hustles ain&t for nothing
You just gotta take it slow
When you need me baby
All you do is let me know

Verse 2:
Why does it feel
That my mind is constantly trying to pull me down
I can&t seem to get away
Continuous mistakes I know I’ve made before
How long will I feel so out of place

(chorus till the end)

[Listening to: Troubles – Alicia Keys – Songs in A Minor (04:29)]

Even the power of the Its-Its can’t help me

Have been messing around with this plug in, trying to incorporate it into my journal. Unfortunately, I know nothing about php, and am doing something wrong, because I can’t get the title and artist to appear like on this page. All I can get is the album cover to appear. Not good. Anyway, think that I am going to head to sleep. Going up to Vacaville to see lots of people. It will be a fun weekend.

[Listening to: Adagio for Strings [Remix by ATB] – William Orbit – Pieces in a Modern Style Disc 2 (07:39)]

I tried to fight it….

But the call of the its-its is too strong for me….

[Listening to: Marmo’s Monster Army – Kaze No Orchestra – Record of Lodoss Wars, Vol. 3 (03:01)]

Friday Five for July 11th, 2003

1. Do you remember your first best friend? Who was it? His name was Derrick, I think. I’m sure if I called my Aunt Jackie, she would know his name. Anyway, I vaguely remember playing with him with our Star Wars toys. There is also a vague memory of a dare to touch the chicken pox tree and then getting chicken pox a few days later.

2. Are you still in touch with this person? No, I haven’t seen him for over 20 years. Like I said before, I would have to call my Aunt Jackie to find out where he is.

3. Do you have a current close friend? To me, a close friend would be a girlfriend. And I do not
currently have a girl friend.

4. How did you become friends with this person? With my last close friend, I met her at work, gave her the Cosmo quiz at work, one thing led to another.

5. Is there a friend from your past that you wish you were still in contact with? Why? There are a couple of people that I wish that I could reconnect with. Jesse Holm; he was a very good friend of mine in high school in Vacaville. Last I heard, he was back in the Bay Area, but I am half the mind to hug him and half the mind to punch him. The same with Matt Elliot (or is it Kelly, can’t remember which last name he took. I think it was Kelly.) Anyway, the same as Jesse, I want to give him a big hug and catch up and at the same time I want to beat the living shit out of him. The other one would be Danny Flack a.k.a. ‘turtle’. I lost touch with him when I moved back to the U.S. from Korea. I’ve always regretted it. Granted, I could probably find these people on Classmates or something, but I don’t want to cough up the money for a Classmates subscription.

[Listening to: Killer/Papa Was a Rolling Stone – George Michael – Ladies & Gentlemen: The Best of George Michael Disc 2 (04:16)]

Done…

4th of July and grad 2003 pictures are finally up sans PS editing. Oh well. I’m going to sleep

Those crazy friends of mine…

Watched L.A. Confidential; pretty good movie. Don’t know why I waited so long to see it.

Called Lesa up, and later brought Barry, Kurt, and Amber via her answering machine into the conversation. I’m still kinda confused on where we are meeting on Sat; I think that we decided to skip the lake and just get drunk at Barry’s, which is fine by me. Still having lunch with April first though.

Had to quit the phone call because 1) I really need to get the pictures up in a gallery on my site tonight and 2) I had to brush my teeth and put my whitening mouth guard in. My goal is to have teeth as bright as Dan Boule (sp?) had in high school. True story, I was at Jesse Holm’s house and we were in the dark; the only thing we could see was Dan’s teeth has he was smiling.

Amber, if you read this: Sorry for the 5min message (again), call me on my cell or at work. Will be in from 9-5. Or better yet, email me.

Hmm, was going to snap a shot of my mouth guard with the webcam, but it’s not working for some reason. Anyway, if I have a strange look on my face, like I’m sucking on a
pacifier, then that’s me whitening my teeth.

O.K. back to pictures.

[Listening to: I’ve Got So Much to Give – Barry White – All Time Greatest Hits (05:21)]