Monthly Archives: November 2000

So I get up at 5am today. **sigh** I still can’t believe that I was actually up that early. I am not a morning person. But I had my reason. The first reason was to get back at my bastard roommate, Quetzal. You see every morning, Quetzal gets up before me to goto school. And in the process of getting ready, he succeeds in banging every drawer that he has, slaming the metal closet doors serveral times looking for something to wear, using his annoying loud cell phone has his alarm clock and taking forever to turn it off. But the kicker is that efore he leaves, he always rummages through the nightstand that is inbetween our beds and spends a minute scrounging for change in his penny bowl that is also on the nightstand. Well today, it was my turn.
Revenge….some say that it doesn’t take that good; that it’s not satifying. Others say that it might taste alright, but it eventually leaves you empty. Well, for me this act of revenge ws well worth it’s price of waking up so early. And I know that it really just a petty piece of revenge that I did. It’s not earth shattering and it’s not going to change the sitation in the apartment. But for me, has I slammed the door to our room and hear him muttering behind me, knowing that he wouldn’t be able to get back those few extra hours of sleep that I took from him, I was having the most wonderful fuzzy feeling of complete revenge that I haven’t felt or tasted in quite a long time.
But even has good has that bit of revenge tasted, it was only an appetizer to the delious feast that I had at Krispy Kreme Doughnuts.
**pause here to have another KKD and to just savior it and the flavor and feeling that it brings**
O.K. So I took the drive down to Union City from SF to get myself and the guys some KKD. I guess it is manditory to bring in doughnuts in on Friday. And since this is my first time opening (I usually work afternoons), I was told to get some. But I can’t eat just regular doughnuts anymore. I can’ t believe that I did eat regular doughnts before and thought that they were good. KKD redefined what a doughnut is suppose to be and taste like. So I got an assorted dozen and some ho glazed for myself. I was in my car for 15-20min, just savioring the warm glazed doughnuts. **sigh** I wish that I could have gotten more, but I am short on funds since the creditors caught me (more on that in another post). Well, I’m at work now, and it is warm enough now that I can get some of this paperwork done. I wonder if I can get off early since I got here early. We’ll see.
Current mood: accomplished
Current music: Sound of the heater warming up

My girl is playing Bust-A-Move 4 (the bubble game, not the dance game) and she is kicking ass!!!! Beauty and Skill all in one package. God, what a lucky guy I am.
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I love my girlfriend. She came to visit me at work to cheer me up. Then she help me get back at my roommate and then she took me to dinner. I love her. I love you honey
**kisses**
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I’m not even going to waste the energy to post something. All I have are bitch comments to make today. Serraph, thanks for putting up with me on the phone tonight. I promise to try to be civil tommorow. I have the water boiling for the PMS tea, so I should be OK.

Current mood: bitchy
Current music: Worlds Apart – Jars Of Clay

I wonder why I have “If I could turn back time” by Cher in my head….
how did it go….
If I could turn back time,
If I could find a way,
I’d take back those thing that I said,
And you’d stay.
If I could reach the stars,
I’d give them all to you…
I wonder what triggered that. **Sigh** I guess these boxes still haven’t learned how to unpack themselves. Back to work.
Current mood: sore
Current music: “If I could turn back time” by Cher stuck in my head

I am sick. I hurt all over. But I’m not throwing up so that’s why I’m at work but I missed karate today. I think it’s cause I don’t eat alot of meat anymore. when i get home, I don’t want to cook any. So I eat rice or soup usually, or maybe pasta. Something that I can let boil while I’ll washing up or take a nap or something. Anyway, Clare is going to get lunch, so I told her to get me a #1 from wherever she goes. I figure it’ll be something like a Big Mac or something; that should be enough to make me sick so I can go home
Current mood: sore
Current music: Listening to KFOG on the radio

I lost the paper with the topics that we are suppose to write for our paper, so I skipped the library. I think I remember what the topics are, but I didn’t want to do research and find out that I was researching the wrong topic. Besides it was really cold today and there was a can of Cambells soup calling for me. So I did some reading for my Women of China and Japan class. God I didn’t realize how behind I was. I also got some emails done. I got one back from Dan. God, I’m glad that him and his family is doing good. I’m going to have to visit him, maybe sometime this week after work.
Just ordered a shit load of CD’s from BMG. Somehow I think that I got cheated. It was buy 1 and get 3 free. But I don’t feel like I got a bargin at all. Hmmm. I guess I’ll have to look at the bill when I get it.
I just don’t know what to think of secludegrrrl. She she seems like she might be likable, once you got pass the rigid christian fundamentalism. But it seems that drama always follows her around. What I think is funny is that she asked that a picture of her be taken down on somebody’s else journal. The thing is that she’s trying to say that the picture of her is copyrighted, but she is at home using napster to download music with her new DSL line. I think it is the hypocracy that she has that gets to me.
Hmmm. I think I’m running just a little too bitchy right now. I think it might be time for some Herbal Remeteas Polynesian PMS rescue. Or maybe some warm milk with honey. Mmmmmm. That would fix my throat and knock me out. I’ll have to think about that.
Tommorow I start two hours of Karate class. I’ll really start getting a workout now. So I will lose an hour of work, cause I don’t think that I want to stay at the warehouse until 6 cause it is a cold warehouse; makes my nipples all hard and stuff. I’ll have to find a way to make up the hours somewhere.
OK the girlfriend is on…
Current mood: bitchy
Current music: Cowboy Bebop Sdtk. – Music for Freelance

Finally got back my hist midterm for my California history class. B+. Whoohoo. Actually, I’m looking it over to see if I can argue for an A-. Well, now I can goto my advisor and dean with this and maybe they’ll over look the D that I got in my other class. Probably not. I need to talk to that teacher anyway to see if there is any extra credit I can do. And this week I HAVE to start working on the paper for my California History class.
Sunday Lunch with Suzanne’s family turned out better than I expected it to be. I was pretty quiet most of the time, but I did have a good time. It’s so wierd cause they are a big family and they have their own traditions and stuff. But wierd in a good way. Her dad shaved his beard off, so he actually looked good. We really didn’t say much, which was probably for the best. Tiffany, her older sister, actually looked like she lost some weight. And Kimberly, Suzanne’s younger sister, and I were on good terms too. All in all it was a good lunch. We went to a Chinese restaurant in Concord that I guess is a family tradition to goto. We ordered tons of food, but we ate most of it too, which was amazing. After lunch, Suzanne, her mom, Kimberly and I went to Sun Valley Mall to do some shopping. Mainly it was Suzanne and Kimberly shopping. Suzanne tried on some coats that really looked good on her. She really liked the leather one, but their was another one that she really liked too. They are def. on the Christmas list of what to get her. We went into Hot Topics next and they had the silk anime shirts that I really like. I almost got one, but held off on it. Then we went looking at Cashmere sweathers for me, but I started to get tired and just wanted to leave. I think it’s all the people that are at the mall. I get anxiety attacks. Which is odd cause I’ve never gotten them before. So we left, but Suzanne and I kinda got into a fight. So the drive home was really unconfortable. When we got back to Antioch, I was going to just leave because she wasn’t talking to me, but I decided to stay and to work it out before I left. That’s how we are so different, Suzanne and I. If she is mad, she wants to work it out and to solve it right there and then. If I get mad, I’d rather stew over it and cool down before I deal with it. One again, we are so different, I can’t believe that we are going out. Must be the sex 😉
Just read a random post from someone who went to see Madonna in concert in NYC. **sigh** that would be a dream come true for me. I hate spending money for CD’s at stores. I remember when CD’s were 12.99 max and you could goto Curcuit City and get them for $10. Now, they are like $18 – $20. Oy Vey!!! Anyway, mainly I get my music from BMG cause they ususally have a buy one get 2 or 3 free. The thing is they don’t have new releases until later. So I can get older CD’s but I have to wait for newer ones. But I’m thinking that I will put out the big bucks for Madonna, esp. after reading the review of her show.
I really want to get Whitney Houston Greatest hits, but I think that I will get the DVD instead of the CD cause they are almost the same price. The thing is that I saw a T.V ad for this CD late night. It’s just kinda sad to see a diva like Whitney selling her stuff on late night T.V. Whitney, just get rid of that dog Bobby. You can do so much better. OMG, I saw her on the cover of the Star or the Enquiror and she just looked TORE UP. I mean she was just FUCKED UP LOOKING. **sigh**
Speaking of looking tore up, I could use a little work myself. O.K. ALOT OF WORK. I really haven’t been taking care of myself in a multitude of ways, but I’m going to try and to change that. I say that all the time, but this time I think that something will happen. We’ll see what happens.
Looking at the users icons on the Search by state. Tonight’s project, after the library and laundry, is to make a new icon. I’ll think about some ideas in class and at work.
Speaking of class, it’s almost time for me to go. I think that I’ll leave Livejournal up on this computer. I’ve been doing that latetly with the computer that they have in the student center. Just my way to get more people hooked on LJ I guess.
So much more I want to say…I’ll just have to hold on until tonight I guess
Current mood: content
Current music: typing of the other people in the computer lab with me

O.K. I think that I’m just going to spew for a time and what ever comes out, comes out. So without further ado….
Reading Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Repair. It’s a good book but I’m having trouble with it. It’s like I know there is a profound message in it, and at times I can feel the meaning or the message brush across my subconcieous. But I can’t grab a hold of it. I have a feeling that I will be reading and rereading this book for a while yet. I’m sure it would have helped last night if I wasn’t having a contest with my bastard roommate over which was louder, my clock radio or his T.V…..
Listening to the City of Angels soundtrack. Originally got it for Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls. But found out that there are some other artist on the CD. U2 has a haunting song called If God Will Send His Angels. Then there’s Uninvited by Alanis Morissette. Jimi Hendrix and Eric Clapton spices up the album a bit. Then there is this song call I Know by Jude that i’ve slowy fallen in love with. It’s a slow ballad song, and I didn’t like it the first time that I heard it. But slowly, it has creeped on me and now I’m wondering what else he has done and if he has a full album out.
But my favorite song on the album is Iris. It’s the orcrastera; I have a thing for somgs with violins and stuff in it. Another reason is because of the video that I made for it. Being the psychopath that I am, I used to think up video to goto songs that I heard on the radio. I could close my eyes and just see the video play in my head. Of course, I would place my friend in the video and myself, of course. I did this in high school but I haven’t really done it since. But for some reason, I totally came up with a complete concept for this song. It involves an angel and a vampire falling in love. I wish that I could write down what I envision, but I can’t. I’ve started a couple of rough drafts of the first scene, but I didn’t like any of them. Basicly the plot is that there is an angel that starts to question her faith and there is a vampire that tries to fight/deny his nature. The vampire is based on Louis from Anne Rice Vampire Chronicles. So one day the vampire see this angel being attacked by other vampires and he resuces her. Later, the vampire is dying and the angel saves him. They become friends and start to fall in love. But of course the angels in heaven and the vampires on earth are against this. The end scene is a fight between this Louis-like Vampire and the head angel. The angel that Louis loves falls from heaven and it is up to Louis to save her. See, rereading that, it looks like crap and there are major holes (how could an angel fall down from heaven if they have wings?) But I’m working on that. Of course, I’ve used people that I know to play roles in the video. I play the Louis/vampire, Suzanne is the angel, Jason is the head angel, and April is in it has a Pandora type vampire…..Ok enough about my psycho ideas…
BTW, I do not like April’s new haircut. And I’m talkin about really not liking it. But I realize that that’s how I had imagines her hairtyle in the video. How wierd.
Started email people that I haven’t talked too in awhile. There are so many people that I have neglectied. In some ways I feel bad. Like Dan, I shouldn’t have spent such a long time not talking to him. But there’s others, like the whole Vacaville gang, that I haven’t talked too in awhile. I did goto Mew’s B-Day dinner and to Amber’s Pumpkin Carving Party. But I don’t know, I just have this feeling that I don’t belong in the group anymore. It’s not like that they have pushed me away. But I think that I just resent the fact that they never call me or anything and that I have to come up to see them. They are up in Sacramento, quit school to work, got their own apts, having babies. ANd then there’s me, STILL in School. **sigh**
I love my girlfriend. Even if she is 5 years younger than me. Her, my brother, and my roommate are all the same age. OLD is what I feel. Just old.
I was told that I need to post something happy. Let’s see. I’m going to see my parents for thanksgiving in two weeks. I’m happy about that. Hmmm. What else. I’m still with Suzanne. Let’s face it, I’m not a happy person.
That’s part of the reason that I didn’t post. Cause my thought went from being sad and depressive to outright hateful. For some reason, I was very upset with different people on livejournal, among other places. I was just angry with everybody. Hmmm. I don’t think I want to get into this right now….
I need to make a new icon. I though I had the hot pants icon that I made awhile ago, but I guess I lost it when I reformatted. Hmm. Mabye that’s what I’ll work on tommorow. What I want to do is a Charlie’s Angels shot with the shilloettes. Another thing that I haven’t done is use my camera. I need to mess around with that this week and take some pics.
Ok. I’m tired and need to goto sleep. Maybe tommorow I’ll try a somewhat more coherrent post and stick to one or two subjects.
Current mood: blah
Current music: City Of Angels Sountrack

Well, well, well. Look who come creeping back to LJ. **sigh** It has been a while since I’ve posted anything; like I posted stuff that was interesting anyway, not like the sky and camille episode. I don’t know why I stopped. Part of the reason was my computer itself. the last couple of weeks, I’ve been upgrading my computer; adding a CD writer and a new sound card. The results have been that my system has been inoperable. Even now, it is running, but the sound is only comming out of one speaker. Once I get the money for a new graphics cards, I’m going to take it in and have Gateway install the card and fix everything. It’ll cost, but I just want my machine to work perfectly. I know it’ll never work perfectly while I’m using Windows. Another reason is that I’ve been kinda scared to post. I have had so much stuff that I wanted to spew out onto the world. About everything, from the election to religion to people in my life and on LJ. But I haven’t been able to. I’ve just been frozen and I don’t know why. Hopefully I can thaw out a bit and start to write about what’s going on in my life. But all of this will have to wait until I finish emailing everybody. And there is a list of people that I have to email. Oy Vey!! Well, today is going to be a fun day. I get to have lunch with Suzanne’s family. It will be interesting to see since her parent and family is seperated. It’s not like there is going to be a food fight or anything. If anything, I’ll just be an accessory for Suzanne; not saying much and just staying out of trouble. And yet, on this beautiful day, a sense of forebodding covers me like a heavy cloak around my shoulders. **sigh** O.k. Time to get ready for this. I have to meet suzanne’s at her mom’s in Antioch. May the force be with me.
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